shit

As I was scrolling through my dashboard, I saw this particular post that says about a person commenting on everything as if everything he says matters. And it hit me. I've always been very vocal about what I think. 

I've always wanted people to assume and to think that I'm elusive as a person. I want them to not be able to predict the next thing I will do, or what's running on my mind. But I've realized, how can I possibly be like that, when I kept on sharing everything about me. So I decided tonight that I'm not gonna tell them what I think, for a start.

I'm sorry I'm not really in the mood to write tonight but I just wanted to let it out. So going back, you know those moments when you feel sympathy over those leads from certain movies where they leave some things unsaid, when you know that it would make things easier for them if they would have only told them? Ironically, I feel good doing that. The feeling when you hold everything inside your head, while no one else knows, and still feel the hope that someone will understand and get to realize what's going on.

she loved mysteries so much that she became one

I love how people are so oblivious about a lot of things. They take a glimpse at one thing and take it upon themselves that they already know a lot about it. They get to know you a little and decide that you know a lot about each other. But the thing is, they don't.

People often describe me as someone who is extrovert, outgoing, but in reality I'm not. Don't get me wrong though. Just because I said i wasn't any of the things list above, doesn't mean I'm already the total opposite. I could be as loud as I want to, I could also be as spontaneous or reserved depends on how I want to be.

I look at lots of people. It's fascinating to observe everyone (not in a creepy kind; well a little) how they respond to certain situations, or simply reacting to things.

I guess if you will ask me, I'm a bit in between. I'm a mix of extrovert and introvert, confidence and insecurity, loud and reserved.